A New Resolution

So I've been working on a few New Year's Resolutions, this blog being one of them.  No need to chastise me because I haven't blogged everyday like I said I wanted to. I've let myself off the hook and I feel a lot better because I'm still blogging and its almost February. As long as I keep writing for practise I am successful.

I stumbled onto my new New Year's resolution today. It was quite by accident. Well preventative but accidental anyway. I quite literally have eleven dollars to my name right now. Sure there is a few buck in the bank and by a few I am also being quite literal. Payday is in two weeks so I am forced to go on a budget diet.  I've been in this near penniless state for a couple of days now. I cling to my eleven dollars. I've been stressed out. I take a step towards Starbucks and am forced to reconsider my double latte.  In my mind I start to list all the things I want, small things, like a new CD, that magazine featuring C-list Celebrity  and fashion nobody actually wears. I won't even buy a small coffee from Tim Hortons.

As I focus on my dire situation and wonder how will I survive two weeks with less than a twenty in my wallet I am struck with the realization that I'm doing alright. This is not a tirade on how rich we are here in Canada and how bad people have it in Haiti and such. Yeah, thats true and I encourage you to be generous and remember others but that's not what this blog is about.

My rent is paid so I won't go cold sleeping outside. I have tons of food in my pantry and freezer and its all edible if I get off my ass and cook it. I've always been ahead of my bills and my electricity is still on. Without a vehicle to put gas in and enough bus tickets to last a month I'm covered when it comes to transportation. So what do I need money for?  Exactly.

Nothing.

That thought really sank in this afternoon after I left my doctor's office. I thought about my health and how I don't lack their either. Heck, my bus transfer was still good for the ride home. Drifting snow swirled all around me in the bus shelter where I stood. I was standing in my own little snow globe.  Nothing I can buy could compare with that free gift the world gave me. I knew that whether I had eleven dollars or eleven cents I would be alright.

Walking through the mall on my way to my next bus, I walked right through the food court, right past the donuts and sushi with a contentment in my heart for the frozen soup in my freezer. Passing Starbucks I made a friend smile which was more satisfying than any fancy cup of coffee. I stopped at the florist to bend down and smell the flowers and the memories that flooded my mind were more beautiful than anything that can be placed in a vase. Suddenly this cold, blizzardy day became glorious.

I walked home with Snow Patrol soundtracking my discoveries. I looked at the sky and thanked Him for everything He had given to me today. I said sorry for not seeing it earlier. He said that was okay, and that each lesson is learned when you learn it no earlier and no later. I wasn't ready any earlier.

It's getting dark out now but I can hardly tell because I feel like I'm basking in such a warm and beautiful light. You can say it sounds cheesy and you are probably right, but I think its cheesy because it's true.

So I've resolved to loose the control money has over my life because I like me better with eleven dollars than with eleven hundred.

Snow Patrol - Chocolate
This could be the very minute
I'm aware I'm alive
All these places feel like home

With a name I'd never chosen
I can make my first steps
As a child of 25

Life at 60mph

Ever have your life go from 0 to 60 in what feels like no time flat?

So I recently had surgery and had to take three weeks off. What a great three weeks! For once I was forced to not do anything strenuous or stressful. I had to sit around, watch TV and in general 'just chill.' I discovered two things during that time.
1. I quite enjoy the leisurely life.
2. but I can't sit still for very long.

I've gone back to work now. The ole 40 hours a week is still the same old same old. Of course, I immediately jump back into auditions and rehearsals. Jeez Louise, soon I'm up to my ears in stuff to do and I have yet to update my calendar. Never mind that I have to start planning for February and then plan to move in March, all while rehearsing 3 and 4 times a week for various events.

Well, I guess I asked for it. This life is what you make of it and I plan on making the most of my time here. Especially if it is doing what I love.  Can't say I always love working, or even rehearsals but I'm happier doing it in the long run. It's better than being stuck at home surrounded by loud relatives (who are potentially reading this blog....I love you) or watching TV for 18 hours a day (and I love TV.)

Here's to bigger and better things coming my way. May work one day be replaced with fun stuff I get paid for!

grumble, grumble, grumble

I'm not blogging tonight...I had started one...it was really clever...then "Safari quit unexpectedly"...well screw you stupid internet...you're not getting a witty blog from me tonight...PFFFTTTHHHHTTTTT...so there...

The Awesome show...at least that's what they should call it

Why is The Big Bang Theory so awesome?

In my pathetic day yesterday I watched the all of the episodes that are out this season, all twelve, one after another. I just sat on the couch and laughed and laughed and laughed. I've also found that the nerdier I get, the more jokes I get thus increasing my enjoyment of the show. Even though I've watched each episode at least twice, often more, they just keep getting better and better.

I am really liking the addition of the female cast member. Melissa Rauch has been a breath of fresh air on the show. Who knows it she'll be on in the final episodes of this season, but all I can say is bring 'er back! She's funny and it's kinda nice to see Wolowitz not completely strike out.

I really liked the cylon toaster bit too. I didn't really get that joke until I started watching Battlestar Galactica. My mom started watching BSG too and my dad loves Big Bang so I'm sure they will both get a lot of enjoyment out of that bit...when they get to it next year sometime.

Well that's all I got for now. I think I need some writing prompts for my future blogs. If you have any suggestions on things I should write about, please, leave me a comment!
thanks
ciao

oops...

Okay so I kinda have already failed...
I haven't blogged in a few days...okay like 4 days.
Well I'm not going to let a little failure stop me from succeeding.

I've not been very motivated lately. I don't know how to get over that feeling. In fact, today I slept in late and barely had motivation to take a shower. I meant to get out and do some errands but I didn't. I didn't leave the house. Now I'm posting it on the internet how pathetic I am.

I did make an awesome breakfast in my lack of motivation. I even made lunch. Now it's 7:30pm and I still don't have much accomplished. I did register all my "get-rid-of" books on Book Crossing's Website.

I am committing to get some things done tomorrow. I will share them with you in hopes that I will feel shame and guilt for not getting it done. You, the world wide internets, will keep me accountable.
So my plan for tomorrow...
1. Release my books into the wild of Winnipeg.
2. Get coffee
3. Stop in at my work places
4. Go shopping for some much needed stuff for home
5. Get more coffee
6. Finish laundry
7. Watch Battlestar Galactica
8. Go to bed
That will be a full day with everything done.
What do ya say?
Think I can do it?
I think I can
I think I can
I think I can
             good night

Do The Math

I gotta post today because I have to post everyday for a month and maybe I'll have made a habit of writing.
Anyway, today is the first of, I'm sure, many, days when I don't really feel like writing.
So instead of a somewhat thought out blog about my day or reflections on time gone by this will be, instead, a slightly narcissistic paragraph or two of drivel.

I'm grumpy.
And here's the math...
8 hours of television in a car = grumpy and sore.
8 days with the same 8+ people who are related to you =  utter insanity.
Those 8+ people should just be glad that they are all still alive. Lord know I am.

That's harsh. I love my family even though they do drive me nuts.

Tonight once we got to Calgary, I had to take a drive alone and ended up at a Blimpie's of all places where I ate the worst salad and had a terrible smoothie. It was sad but definitely worth the peace and quiet.

Now it's back to Gilmore Girls and a hopefully very restful sleep.
I look forward to home and the lovely people I get to choose to be with and who choose to be with me!

thrilling